Dearest Husband

Growing up I saw happiness as something to be found in the opposite sex. From then on, that is what I did. I sought happiness from temporary people. I struggled to find that happiness in someone who I couldn’t physically see or touch. My first semester of college, all that changed. I realized I was never truly happy. In that moment, it may have felt that way. I am finally giving my full heart to the Lord, and letting Him control who is in my life and what role they play in my life.

I recently came across a blog post that inspired me to do this.

http://www.ansleyeudy.com/blog/2015/1/19/to-my-future-husband (here's her blog)

That gave me more things to pray about, more things to ponder, and something to strive for. The post was a letter from an 18 year old girl to her future husband. The Lord works in such mysterious ways. I have been reading a book called Choosing God’s Best. It has been giving me so much perspective on what love is and why it’s better to wait. The blog post gave me some reassurance that I am not alone in this never ending battle of wanting to wait and be single, or falling for the first guy to come along. Just so I can have the adorable couple posts, not be alone this coming valentine’s day    ( which I won’t, its girls night J )  Instead, I am surrendering everything in my life to Christ. Including my relationship status. I don’t need a guy to fill an empty void.  So here it goes.. my own letter.

  Dear Hubby,

I am Sabrina. Your wife. You probably don’t know me yet, just as I don’t know you yet. I have been praying for you recently. Praying for who you are, you to be safe, you to fall in love with the Lord just as I am.  I have been praying for our marriage. I pray that our marriage shines the light of God. I pray that you have a heart on fire for Jesus. I pray that you love Him more than you could ever love me. I pray that when we marry, we pray together. We pray for each other.

I have this list going that describes what I want to have in a man. But I know already you will be so much more than that. God knows what I need in my life and He will provide that and more. Some of the things on my list are silly, girly little quirks like making me feel like a princess. Which I know you will because I am a princess of the Lord and you will love me because you love our great God.

I pray you are slow to anger, that you encourage me through prayer. I pray that I am slow to anger.

I pray we face adversity together and let God lead us in the right direction. I pray that we face our fears together, knowing God is watching over us. I pray that you have a passion to see the rest of God’s beautiful creation with me and we go where He calls us.

I pray for you to carry all the fruits of the spirit : Love, Peace, Joy, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self Control. I pray for me to be these things as well. I pray for honesty in our marriage. And I pray for us to lift each other up always.

I am preparing myself for you by waiting. Waiting until God gives me this overwhelming joy and peace that screams at me to say “yes” to a date, “I will” to a proposal, and “I do” on our wedding day. I am praying for God to allow me to be the woman you are praying for to be your wife. I pray that I become a Proverbs 31 woman and I continue to fall in love with the Lord before I can fall in love with you. That’s just what I’m doing. Allowing myself to fall deeply, madly in love with our God before I can fall in love with you. We’re both going to have to be patient because only God knows when we will connect and when we will marry.

 I pray that you can deal with my horrible jokes, and my ruthless sarcasm. I pray you be a leader in all you do. A leader who ministers to people and helps them in times of need. I pray that you begin to pray for our children before we plan for them. Pray that you be an earthly father for them. I pray that you are their rock. I pray you take our son fishing and give him words of wisdom that come from the word of God. I pray you take our little girl on dates, and show her a true Godly man who loves her.

I pray you will serve the Lord. I pray you are called to action and are willing to serve those actions. I pray you will help me serve the Lord when I don’t know where He is calling me. 

I pray we find each other when we are both ready. I pray we connect with one common thing above all else; a desire to serve the Lord and we both have a heart on fire for Him. I pray until then we are surrounded by people who will stand by us and help us grow. People who will encourage us and fellowship with us. I pray we enjoy this time without each other and do everything we feel the Lord calls us to do. I pray for a good life for you. I pray you live it. I pray for your well- being and your relationship with the Lord.

Well, until the day we meet I will continue to pray for you. I love you already. I can not wait to fall in love with you.

Your future wife,

Sabrina

P. S This is what your wifey material looks like! 

     

I am exactly where I'm supposed to be.

This past year has been a huge change for me. With graduating high school last May, going to Puerto Rico this past summer and being emerged into their culture, moving out and living in a dorm, and losing old friends as I made new ones I struggled with all of the change. It hit me like a train and I didn't know how to react to it. I struggled with finding an outlet or the right person to turn to. My friends and family were only a phone call/short drive away, but there was a part of me that wanted to do everything on my own. So, i wallowed in the sea of emotions that in the end created a tidal wave. I was fortunate to have gotten into Freshman Class Council. The people that surrounded me shined G-d's incredible love and light into my life. My roommates did the same. It has been a rocky first semester until I realized that Christ is the answer. He is the light and the savior. He will prevail and stand by your side no matter what. I have always believe that there is a higher being, but I never grew into a relationship until recently. I am currently so on fire for Christ and His love. Since it is February ( the month of love ) I want to encourage everyone to think about loving people. Just once a day, remind someone or show them that you care. Shine the light of the L-rd and let people see his love.